I’ve always been focused on myself.
Learning about myself, bettering myself, working on myself, giving love to myself, thinking about myself, taking care of myself.
I question myself a lot.
What do I want for my life? How do I want to feel? What do I love doing? What are my dreams? What are my goals? How can I grow? What can I give? What can I celebrate? What am I learning?
I ask myself other questions too that aren’t as deep.
Am I actually hungry? Should I re-wear these panties? Should I brush my teeth tonight? Am I showing too much belly? Should I post this on social media?
I am constantly questioning myself. My thoughts. My feelings. My choices. My actions. My behaviors.
Is that actually true or am I making up a story in my head? Why do I feel the need to talk so fast? Why aren’t my projects getting completed? Why do I have so many digestive problems? Should my poop be this color?!
The focus has always been on me.
And I feel like it has gotten me very far in my life.
I am living my absolute dream. Traveling around New Zealand in a painted van, meeting fellow wanderlusters, exploring beautiful mother earth, deepening the connection to my inner spirit, creating inspiration through videos, and experiencing the absolute magic of life.
Mmmm. That feels good to reflect on. I am so blessed. Inhale. Exhale. Breathing it in. Letting it go.
I have created this dream life by choice.
Choosing courage. Leaving my safe corporate job and moving across the world with no plan.
Choosing freedom. Traveling alone and having no responsibilities.
Choosing faith. Believing in the universe to guide me on the right path.
Choosing love. Tuning into the love within me and spreading it with everyone I meet.
If there is anything I know in this world best, it’s me.
I am a master of my mind. I know its patterns. It’s stories. It’s limiting beliefs. It’s empowering beliefs. It’s potential.
I am a master of my heart. I know its desires. It’s warmth. It’s openness. It’s strength. It’s capabilities. It’s love.
I am a master of my gut. It’s instincts. It’s likes. It’s dislikes. It’s sensitivities. It’s noises. It’s truth.
I am a master of my soul. My dreams. My skills. My qualities. My personality. My strengths. My weaknesses.
I KNOW ME. SO MUCH.
I've had an incredibly deep journey exploring my mind, heart, gut and soul. In an out. Up and down. Through and through.
But wait… it’s all about me. Me. Me. Me. Me.
Is this selfish?
Focusing on me. My. Mine. I.
One half of me says, “You need to know, heal and love yourself before you can know, heal and love others.”
The other half says, “I, me, mine, my are all attachments to the self. The belief that I am different from others. Separate.”
SO WHAT IS IT? What’s a human to do?
Focus on me or focus on we?
What if I combine those two parts?
If I focus on myself while realizing that everything I experience is universal and everyone experiences this too, then it is we. And we are unified. And we are all the same. And me is we.
Deep inhale. Deeper exhale. Yes. That feels right. In my soul. Which is the same soul as everyone else. We come from one source. The life force that exists in everything. The energy of life. The ever present essence of love.
If I know myself, I know everyone.
If I heal myself, I heal everyone.
If I love myself, I love everyone.
Now this I know is true.
Let us question ourselves. The deep, the not so deep and everything in between.
Let us dive deep into our thoughts. Feelings. Choices. Actions. Behaviors.
Let us create our dream life by choosing courage. Freedom. Faith. Love.
Let us become masters at our mind. Heart. Gut. Soul.
Let us know, heal and love ourselves. While knowing, healing and loving the world in the process.
I am you. You are me. We are we.
And so it is.