Truth time. I’ve struggled with body image issues and digestive disorders since high school. I have spent a lot of time with shame in the bathroom checking the mirror to see if my stomach is flat. I’ve spent even more time on the toilet in pain with diarrhea, constipation, bloating, hemorrhoids and itchy, burning butthole fungus infections.
Oh god… it pains me to write this but deep behind the egoic mind I know the power of sharing. Shit, I seriously feel horrified right now. What will people think? Will I be rejected? Will people think I’m gross or totally messed up?
Ah. Fuck it. If I practice what I preach, I must express all of me authentically. Not just the rainbow magic but also the dark demons. These are my demons… nice to meet ya.
Through my long journey of learning what self-love actually is and naturally healing my gut, I am beginning to accept my body. Despite the pains, it is perfect, whole and complete because this is my divine path. My dharma.
To have beauty image ideals from media shoved down my throat as well as way too many antibiotics, birth control pills, sugar and alcohol. Damn this shit makes me angry, sad and scared. I am finally allowing myself to fully feel these ‘negative’ emotions. Expressing them actually fuels my passion to heal myself and in doing so, inspire, guide, and empower others on their unique healing journey.
This isn’t just about me. This is for all the people who feel helpless suffering with similar issues. Or any health issues for that matter. Stomach issues are honestly an epidemic, especially in America.
On the bright side, everything I am learning about healing the gut through yoga, ayurveda, breathing, food, herbs, etc. is giving me hope. I know nutritional therapy, alternative medicine and yogic practices can save us. It is saving me, every day, more and more. I know I am becoming the most vibrant, healthy, radiant version of myself. This keeps me committed to drinking apple cider vinegar, not drinking alcohol, breathing into the abdomen and visualizing healing.
We can heal our bodies, our minds and our souls that are yearning to be fully alive. I’m on an adventure of radical aliveness, integrating being and becoming. I am motivated on the path to fulfill my life purpose and I am at peace knowing I am whole right now.